10. S T U C K

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Hi,

For the last week and a half I have been stuck between 201 and 203 lbs. I was beginning to be really discouraged. I have been working really hard and not seeing the results that should be associated with the amount of work that I have been putting in. It was really discouraging and at some point in the the last week I wanted to give up. I didn’t think that the work was worth it until I remembered that there was a point in time where I didn’t think that 201 was even possible.

Now here I am at 201 complaining about the weight loss process is not moving fast enough. It took me so long to get here, I can’t rush the process. I still have a long ways to go, but I’ve made it this far. I can do it, I know that I can make it.

If anyone is actually reading this, know that you have the ability to overcome.

Until next time,

Laur

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4:when people tell me I need to lose weight

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Hi,

People have a tendency to state the obvious. During a category three hurricane, you might find those idiots that post, “It’s raining so hard outside.” NO DUH, Sherlock!

I don’t know if you can tell, but that ish irks the sugar and spice out of me. I particularly despise when people do that in terms of my weight, especially if it is someone who has known me for a while. He or she should know better.

Here is what goes through my mind when someone says tells me that I’ve gained weight, or that I need to lose weight:

Person: elLE, you’ve put on some weight. You should really start exercising again.

Me (in my mind)” WHO THE FLYING MONKEY DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO TELL ME THAT WHAT I NEED TO DO WITH MY BODY?

Me (out loud): Really?

Me (in my mind): HOW DARE YOU?…

(goes on mental rant for 10 minutes, but never says anything out loud)

Even though I have never been bold enough to actively flip out on someone for stinking their nose on my scale, the fact that people believe that they can make a comment is annoying.

I have always interpreted these comments as: elLE, you are not good enough as you are, you need to change in order for you to be acceptable in [insert name here]’s sight. Which is great for my self-esteem, as you can imagine (please read this with every ounce of sarcasm that I dipped it in).

A battle with weight is not solely a physical war with the scale and food, it is also very much emotional. Adding to my already existing emotional turmoil, does a lot more harm than good.

The gist of this is: before commenting on someone’s struggle, check your intentions and how your message can be perceived.

Until next time,

elLE